We have inner foundations. Some are stronger than others, and it is often formed by early childhood experiences. Some people will always feel “okay” at a base level even when weathering difficult and uncertain periods of life. They believe they will get through it and have a support system they know they can rely on. Others may have accumulated their millions and billions and yet feel that at any moment, they might become impoverished and end up living on the street. I am certainly in the latter category.

Part of why I’m roaming the earth alone and to see friends is to understand my place in this world. Where do I belong? Who do I know? What sorts of relationships do I have? Which do I want?

My time in Europe has been nourishing in that respect. Friends have shown me so much love and support without judgment, without asking for anything. It is really nice to be the person being taken care of for once, but it’s also a new feeling.

The open invitations to London, Germany, Sicily. Spa day. A simple takeaway dinner. Waking up at 5am after 3.5 hours of sleep and being willing to drive me 2 hours to the airport (which I of course said NO WAY to). Inviting me to just chill at the family house in Mallorca, basically indefinitely, to collect myself. All the information for my trip to Sicily. Helping me figure out where to go and what to do. Brainstorming with me about crossing the Alps and offering me gear and guidance. Patience. Listening. More than listening, making me feel heard.

Thank you for being better than friends. I feel much safer, and my foundation is a lot more solid because of you.