Category Archives: Work

Last week on the East Side

I am sort of starting to understand the whole East Side-West Side divide, though also not really. Maybe it will finally click in when I move to the West Side. Or maybe it won’t. Is it distance? Is it culture? Is it both?

This period in Silver Lake and Los Feliz has been uncertain and intentionally lonely. It’s been about rediscovering and initiating the process of rebuilding without actually doing the rebuilding part. February was my Silver Lake hideaway period and my introduction to LA, a period when I was open and excited and yet tentative and hidden. I didn’t have a car, so I would Uber or take long walks to the gym. Hours would be spent looking up at the ceiling fan.

Los Feliz and Silver Lake are literally blocks apart, and where I ended up living in Los Feliz is actually closer to parts of Silver Lake than I was when I was actually living in Silver Lake! And yet, they are worlds apart. Silver Lake is like Williamsburg, or at least like Williamsburg used to be. Edgy, cool, artistic, raw. And yet, not even that anymore, as the edge moves further in the direction of the edge towards Echo Park, Highland Park, and who knows what lies beyond that. I haven’t bothered to study a map. Listening to GPS without actually looking at the map moving hasn’t helped. Being generally oblivious to my surroundings hasn’t helped either. Continue reading Last week on the East Side

10 things I’m doing in LA

My LA life is a mix of being an artist and business person. When you try to fit into so many different worlds and selves, it’s not the easiest thing to negotiate your identity and intention with yourself. Also, just logistically, it’s not the easiest thing to do. There are only so many hours of the day. Best practice in life seems to focus on just 1 thing. My deadline for starting to develop and act on that focus is May 8. Until then…

  1. Starting my consulting business
    Working with a partner I met through a mutual friend. We’re helping with brand, strategy, and business development, with some emphasis on fashion. We’re sort of working on a related tech startup too, but that’s a little less defined. I hope this becomes successful! I don’t really want to wait tables at California Pizza Kitchen, but I’ll do it if it means free pizza. Here’s us on set in DTLA last week:


Continue reading 10 things I’m doing in LA

Tell me about a time when you…

Oh fuck. How many more of these questions am I going to have to answer?

It was 10am. “Tell me about a time you invented an original metric, why you did, and how it impacted results.”
“Uhhhhhh….number of bagels eaten per hour? I like bagels. I am a carb championa.”

“Tell me about a time when you built something based on customer input.”
“Uhhhh, well I do like traveling to customers in sunny places, so I’ll listen to them if they’re in the right location.”

“Tell me about a time when you took action without any data.”
“Well, I once needed to get to Boston by midnight, so I immediately booked an Amtrak ticket.”

“No, now tell me about a time when you took action without any data, and you had no external emergency situation to push you to do it.”
“Heh, what? Well, I did eat a mozzarella sandwich this morning.”

“Tell me about a complex problem you solved with a simple solution.” “Uhhhhhhhh…FUCK, I so stupid.” Continue reading Tell me about a time when you…

Aspiring aspirations

“Maybe I should just be a waitress. I’m seriously considering it,” I texted Jon.

“Aren’t those jobs really hard to get in LA?”

Sigh. Probably.

“From GM to waitress.”

“Yeah that would be funny.”

“I’ll write a book about it.”

“Why don’t you just sell haircuts on the street? That was lucrative for you.”

Los Feliz be afraid, I’m driving

Watch out, world – I’m driving. I moved to Los Feliz from Silver Lake yesterday. After a month of Ubering and Lyfting around driven by purpose and necessity, the idea that I have discretionary power to go ANYWHERE is liberating.

I really first learned how to drive in South Africa. I had learned a month before going there that I’d need a car to get to the office, so I spent a month rushing through driver’s ed, approximating getting your car parked between two cars and a curb, and watched a ridiculously boring video mandated by the state. Well, I did fail my first test and amid tears and camping out for a new online appointment, I passed my driving test two days before my flight and arrived in South Africa with a shoddy piece of paper called a temporary driver’s permit and an equally shoddy piece of paper called an international driver’s permit and got into a rental with no GPS. Then I rolled along the left side of the road, occasionally forgetting and veering onto the right and turning on my windshield wipers instead of signaling. Oh right, and dodging all the animals and potholes on the road at night, particularly after one day when I decided to drive 18 hours straight across the country. Somehow I am still alive.
Continue reading Los Feliz be afraid, I’m driving

Consulting

More and more people are going remote or independent in work. Technology, budget cuts, the need for a more project- or capability-specific roles in our workforce are fueling this trend, and it will likely continue. I don’t know if it’s just me and my age bracket, but it also seems as though no one is happy at work anymore. I know only a handful of people who have true job satisfaction. Most of them are self-employed.

It’s a big leap to go from working for an organization to going independent. I remember when I was in college, someone once told me that everyone should try freelance at some point in their lives. That comment always intrigued me, as another life level and milestone I needed to hit.

When I left my job in May, I immediately filed for an LLC to start my own consulting practice. My plan was to work on strategy projects and help startups create and deliver on their growth strategies.

Here are a couple of things I am learning along the way. Continue reading Consulting

Shit might be getting real

Navigating what you’re going to do with your life sounds daunting. The reality is that the moves you make matter and sure, they sort of do determine the course of your life and all your future opportunities. Eh, but nothing is permanent.

Traveling is a great activity and mode for gaining perspective and finding the source of who you are. When you take yourself out of your usual role and context in the life you’ve carefully (or not so carefully) constructed, there is blankish slate for you to start to draw out some options. Traveling also makes you realize that all the minutiae you think matters doesn’t matter. Who cares who’s going to come out with the first driverless cars? Yes, these things can change our world pretty fundamentally, but I don’t know that they’re at the core of where meaning comes from. We don’t engage with that often enough. We are human beings, not just a string of technological events we create, engage in, or are excluded from that we like to label progress. All that is meaningful in that way seems relegated to our private lives rather than our collective sense of belonging. There are probably just too many of us out there. It’s hard to see that we’re all part of the same continuous blob if we zoom out far enough. Continue reading Shit might be getting real

Early days in LA

The Uber pulled up to my Lower East Side apartment. My friend Melanie helped me lug my luggage downstairs – a suitcase, carry-on, and guitar. She’s been there in a few of my final moment type situations with her mom vibe and encouraging wave. When it comes to life decisions, we are on opposite ends of the spectrum with myself valuing adventure, freedom, and challenge and with her valuing building a good, stable life free of sudden movements. She would never blow up her life in the way that I have. Then again, I was never the type of person who would do something like this until I was someone who would do something like this. Continue reading Early days in LA

NYC, I’m in love-hate with you. Goodbye.

The day after my 35th birthday, I boarded a flight back to NYC. I hadn’t been back home since August when I booked a last-minute one-way ticket to London.

Immediately, I was back in it. Back-to-back appointments and meeting people. Dinners, breakfasts, lunches, drinks, texts, emails, communications overload. People were flowing in and out of my life and apartment, jamming into this crowded space we call time. My newly-acquired Fitbit was giving me a lot of positive feedback is the upshot. My Metrocard was being swiped. Uber was making frequent stops. I took a nature trip out to Ramapo in Jersey. Classpass reservations were made as I tried to push myself back in shape. Continue reading NYC, I’m in love-hate with you. Goodbye.

Saigon, day 3 – wiped!

The day was spent grazing, gymming, and then at a startup event.

Some eats (minus the massive amounts of summer rolls from street vendors):

I ended the day in a co-working space, at an event hosted by 500 Startups and the Canadian government. The panel discussion was interesting, but it left me wondering about how this startup scene was going to be fueled in Vietnam and what it would actually end up looking like. The chit chat networking session after the event made me realize I need to craft a better story about what I’m doing with my life. Explaining that I’m a nomad without an agenda doesn’t really go over very well. Blank stares. I could see the thought bubble over peoples’ heads, “Oh, you’re not important…or are you? I don’t even know what you’re talking about.” Silence. “Excuse me. I’m going to have a beer.” Dismissed.

Word-constructing meditation on stress

I don’t know when the burnout started. I can’t pinpoint a moment. Achievement orientation seemed encoded into my being from an early age. Was I programmed for burnout?

It may have started in high school with the nights I chased a NoDoz with Green Mountain coffee at 11pm so I could cram all night for a test the next day. It could have been the years of working 100+-hour weeks. In my life, I had always felt that whatever shortcomings I had – and I felt I had many – I could overcome through sheer dedication and work ethic. I felt that if I could put in an additional 40 hours of studying to get a 99 (A) on a test vs. a 92 (A-), I felt that it was worth it to squeeze out that remaining X%. That I should push for perfection. And it worked for a while. It better than just “worked.”

During one of my interviews at an NYC-based hedge fund, I was proud when I proclaimed that I was working these kind of hours. Rick from the recruiting department seemed horrified, disbelieving, and fascinated at the same time. Continue reading Word-constructing meditation on stress

Freedom is an ice cream cake: Happy 6-month anniversary!

For the 6-month anniversary of me + freedom, I am giving us a present – the next level of freedom! On May 7, 2016, I embarked on a strange and beautiful journey. After a lifetime of workaholism, I voluntarily left my job to figure out what I really want to do with my life. I have no idea if I will find that perfect calling, but I am determined to give it my best shot…and to be patient with myself along the way.

Reflecting back on the arc of my journey to today, it’s pretty remarkable what has been required to shed the layers of expectation and habitual thinking around what I needed to do in my life to be considered a success in my own eyes and in the eyes of the world. My first week of unemployment was ebullient and frenetic. I threw myself a party, complete with a drunken “Happy Birthday” screech (um, it’s not my birthday! I quit my job…) delivered and serenaded by a friend as I was presented with a Hello Kitty cake. I had so many meetings that week – I considered jumping into other industries and jobs. I felt like I needed to be even more invincible, perhaps to make up for some insecurity around venturing into unknown jobless territory. Not having a job in NYC…you might as well not exist.

I traveled to CO, SF, NYC, SF, Japan, Bali, NYC, London, Germany, Sicily, London, Jeju, Seoul, and now Thailand. I started a consulting practice and worked with several startups and on London Fashion Week. Continue reading Freedom is an ice cream cake: Happy 6-month anniversary!

Nomad List meetup, Seoul

I almost feel like a real nomad. I went to a nomad meetup in Seoul at Woodstock Music Bar in Gangnam. I met Pieter Levels, creator of Nomad List, RemoteOK, and CoLive. I was surprised by the composition of the rest of the crew. One woman was an English teacher and friend of a friend. Another was an HP colleague. The co-founder of Hive, the biggest South Korean co-working space. A couple who spent half the year being nomadic. A game designer who was starting learn to code meetups in Seoul.

This is probably something I’ll look at as a milestone of sorts when I look back. Or maybe it was just an excuse to eat some chicken karaage. I am glad I went to this instead of the massive TechCrunch Asia event.

Nomad List Meetup

Nomad life in Seoul

Yesterday was a string of cafes. Slack messages were incoming gathering our disparate group of “digital nomads” together for cafe exploring while working. There was Cafe Kkrumer (Here Comes That Dreamer), where we worked on bean bags on the roof before moving to the outdoor patio. We then walked to a library cafe chock full of people but no coffee.

We walked around Hapjeong to Hongdae. Then dinner at a place called Ugly Stove, where we had brunch that wasn’t even real brunch. We had gotten so used to family style that even though we all ordered separately, we instinctively shared the dishes. The night was spent milling around the street food of Myeongdong.

Street food

Along the way, we talked a fair bit about nomadism. There’s a digital nomad conference happening in Bangkok next week. I commented that I was curious about it, but it probably didn’t suit me very well considering that I’m not really a digital nomad. Continue reading Nomad life in Seoul

Whirlwind community

Week 2 in Jeju-do, South Korea has come and gone. The week was low on productivity and high in social and community activity. I have been feeling a bit burnt out from balancing a communal digital lifestyle with visiting guests and my personal goals.

The vibe here in Jeju has been jovial and warm. There are roughly 35 of us participating in a program called Hacker Paradise, a traveling community of “digital nomads” – freelancers, creatives, entrepreneurs, and other remote workers. At any given time, you can check Slack to see what people are eating, drinking, working on, and otherwise planning.This essentially serves as an open invitation for anyone to join. There is a fair bit of humor involved too – new emojis made, giphys shared, and lively banter (sometimes drunken, sometimes sober). I am personally part of a few different groups, including hiking, yoga, writing, music, saunas, drinks, working at cafes, waterfalls, sketching, and actually, quite a few more. Continue reading Whirlwind community